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So much shit. Where to even start?

I owe 300 bucks to get my license renewed. I'm the only one saving up for the house taxes, which is 815. To file my parents seperation costs 156. If we don't file it we no longer qualify for section 8. Combined with the medical bills. We owe a fuckton of money. I don't even see the point in paying the house taxes, as the house isn't really worth it, when the fucking heater hasn't worked since 01 and now the downstairs electricity is all in the damn kitchen. Whoever wired this house needs hit, hard.

I will be working on my off day to try and drum up more money. But as it stands I've only got 300 saved up, when it's due on the 19th. To be honest I've been working my ass off like crazy. I'm getting tired of being the only that makes an effort to take care of shit in this house. I can only hope things work out and that soon we will be moving. That or I will. I'm considering selling Tamaki to try and drum up more cash. But I'm worried there would be too much time sitting on the market before a buyer would show up. Simply put we need money, or we won't have a home to go back to, even if it's shitty.

I'd like to say I have this weekend to look forward to. But yeah...I'm so damn depressed it isn't funny and have begun to consider just staying home and getting much needed sleep.

I say Krispin' Thursday. That was lovely. I've missed her tons. I hope she gets time to watch Ouran Host Club. Rich telling me to get a boyfriend for makin' childlings was hilarious. X'D

Let's see. My weekend started off,
A man dying in front of my house.
*short version of how, man just lost his job, got kicked out his house, slept in the garage/shack of a friends, woke up the next day feeling like shit. Said friend chucked him into the back of the truck to take him to the hospital...he stopped breathing, pulled over in front of our house. Attempted to do cpr, but didn't do mouth to mouth ambulance arrived, said DOA. Took forever for the coroner to arrive and retrieve his body. And they left the blanket he died in/under on the corner of our street in a big plastic bag =A=*

My debit card got eaten by the atm. And I just wanted to put a buck in it so it wouldn't over draw by 8 cents.

My license is going to be suspended as of the 16th of this month. For a nonpointable offense. Going to try and fight it but gods know how well that will go.

A good thing tho' was Mike getting pissed cause Mary Paul told him to work. XDDD

Saturday was good, I hung out with Stephi' for a bit. We went to From Dark Pages. I wanted to hug all the male actors in it. It's sad isn't it? Especially the man playing the creator of Sherlock Holmes. X'D ADORABLE Seriously tho', they were all really really good! The grumpy maid was the best. XDDD
I had to fight the urge to squeel and run at the ginormous stove of awesome tho'. 8u Xo And to not touch that beautiful silver tea set I was standing next to when the prince was shot. X'DDD

Today tho'. Was a good/bad day. Star and Amanda came and snatched me up. Sadly not even a full minute from my house. We turned left onto Ritter and this bitch threw open her door and sadly Amanda's car collided with it. XU I will attempt to go into better detail about it later on. But I'm glad it happened literally across the street from my house. So I just walked over got my Mom and Dad to inform them of what happened. My Mom stayed till the cops finally showed up and helped. The woman tried to put the blame on us from the start. BUT, I DISTINCTLY recall the bitch holding a fucking coffee maker in her arms when we collided her door that she kicked open with her feet. >8U
I got to watch Dr. Who. It is really cute. And I wish to see more of this Cpt. Jack. X'D
I can't help but feel it's my fault. Just like with Lindsay's cats getting fleas. I petted Harley before I left to go hang out at her house after all. =A=

This weekend has been exhausting to say the least. =A= I need a break. I think I will consider taking a vacation from work and just sleep for an entire week. X'D

No matter how much I try. I keep getting depressed, and pissed off at the fact that I'm depressed.

We've got to get together 800 dollars for the house taxes. Along with bills, and of course my dad isn't helping worth a damn.  I keep fluctuating between finding beauty in the world and being absolutely disgusted with everything to the point of wishing to board up all windows and bricking myself in.

Work is tedious, to say the least. People keep complimenting me on my loosing weight. But now I'm being bothered by the few male employees. Making me not want to be around people even more. Which is pissing me off cause I want to be around my friends. Hell there are points where I actually want to touch/be around people but no one is around when this happens. Which just leads right back to being depressed and straight on into anger.

Any chances of me moving out keep being knocked down by some various bill or issue. First it was the trips to the hospital cause of my stomach, now it's bills that have piled up, and my mom never told me she needed more money. Why, I don't know. Chances are high I will be pulling another loan again. Joy of joys.

I wanna do something, but I'm so damn listless. Every time I'm lonely, I end up thinking about Kati which has been making me cry like I'm insane. Sometimes I won't even be thinking of her. And I will be suddenly attacked with a simple thought and that crushing feeling of lose caves in on me again. We were so attached at the hip, it's like I've lost a part of myself. Which leads to more pissed-off-ery.

Upside of things. I got to see Grace again. I've known her since jr high. X) She's married *0* And wants kids as well. She will be moving in 2 weeks tho'. But not very far. It seems we've both been living in Irvington for a while, but just never saw each other. I missed her tons.

Down side. Tony is twatwaffle. After that bullshit argument, we had the lil' talk. In which he gave me lame excuses for him blowing up at me. But now I generally have to bother him even more to get any response. In fact we will go days without a word. He said he wishes I would talk more. But then I make the attempt to do so and I get more radio silence. Even when I told Grace the situation, and didn't in any way make him out to be a jackass, she told me the whole situation is freaking childish.  I'm getting so pissed off with this it isn't funny. I can't even mention Jessie without him going stoic on me, that is if I can get him to talk at me*it's at, not to me anymore*.  This is why I don't think friendship has a value in years, but in how much you know and understand a person.

On that note, I'm hoping to make at least one new friend at ACen to keep me preoccupied. If my mind isn't left to wander, I'm hoping I won't get as depressed. This way Tony can't bicker at me about how I'm "Getting all up in" his "face" about stuff. With that one, I was trying to find out if the sewing machine he bought was a piece of shit or not. It was by the way. Or try to make me come off as ungrateful, when he had figured out what old cartoon show I was thinking of...a day ago. By saying "Oh and by the way YOUR WELCOME for The Off Beats" even tho' I had thanked him right after he told me the name of the show the day before. XI I swear he's just trying to pick shit apart. I'm about to fucking cut him.

Today was interesting to say the least. Jessie texted me at 8 in the morning about how she will be bored for an hour till the bus arrives. Which I assumed meant she was alone downtown by herself. ..I was right. When I got there, angry and dressed in my pj's. She was talking to a known sex offender I've read about online, and seen in the news twice. On the list for rape, and later on stalking. My head wanted to explode with how worried I was about the situation. When I made it back to bed, my stomach hurt like hell. And I honestly couldn't get back to sleep. So when I texted Tony to make sure he was actually meeting her at Union Station, he responded with "To early for snarkiness. Yes I am. She will be fine" I wasn't being snarky damnit. I just wanted to make sure I didn't loose another damn friend, especially when I have the fucking chance to make sure of it. For fuck sake. I get so pissed off when I think of his dumbass. I honestly think I'm better off just ending it. There's no point in it anymore. I wish I did have the means to brick myself off from the world. But I'm sure this house would collapse from the extra weight.

This past few weeks have been hella hectic. There's no way around that.

Long story short Tony and I fought , Tony and I made up. Though he tried to give a bunch of excuses as to why he went off on me. And I basically had to pull teeth to get him to go back to the issue that made him go all bananas on me. Which boiled down to, I need to talk more. But he isn't talking or telling me things as much anymore either. So he needs to talk more too.  It still leaves a plethora of other issues for the 3rd party involved in the issue. =A= We are talking, more granted. But things are still a bit off. And his dumbass wants to sleep in his car for ACen. He doesn't realize the problems it will cause, nor the bootleg drama that could possibly happen by him ostracizing himself.

If I did the counting right, I'm scheduled to work the weekend ACen happens. Which blows royally. So I'm going to have to figure out a way to get around that. As I'm really disliking the rule that you can't request weekends you work off. >:I

Last night was fun, I got to meet so many people and play awesome games. I still don't like mead tho', nor vodka with lavender and vanilla flavoring. But I managed to finish off the lil' mead I did have. X'D I did get embarrassed a lot tho'. But that happened BEFORE the mead. X'D Homemade chex mix is tastey :d

I spent the night at Lindsay's. Always fun stuffs.

And the Thursday before last. I went all the way out to Reevesville(spellering?) and had. But ranted a LO, with occasional outbursts of  "DAMNIT I WANT TO HIT HIM". Due to Tony and I being stupid. We went to the park, ...where, I'm still not sure. But my gods! They have metal slides and a merry go round. And stuffs made of WOOD. I miss such things in our parks here in Indy. X3 The teeter totter's seat broke on impact with the ground, while Jessie was on it, poor Jessie. I got everyone to sign it. <3 I had to wear a hat and mittens the entire time tho' cause it was frickin' COLD. An, Amber, and I do believe her name is Corey, are all really awesome peoples. *HA I remembered names, hell just got a lil' more chilly* I hope I get to know them better. And see them more often.

Then I worked that weekend.

But luckily this weekend I don't. Wooot.

Mike got hurt at work. And it was OSHA recordable and he still has a damn job there. BUT, now he's even more USELESS than before. >:U How the hell do you keep your job when,
You're in an area doing shit you aren't supposed to be
You're off the clock
You're breaking the rule of NOT being on or near the lift while it's in motion
You're off the clock and you were supposed to have already clocked in and returned to your work area a half hour ago?!

Why are they keeping this fucker around? =A= And since his foot magically got caught under the lift now he sits on his ass not doing anything but talking with Doug. Our other resident jackass. =A= 

Urgh, I can't help but wonder how long he will milk his bum foot. And gods I hope they let him go soon. He's driving us all crazy.

On a happier note. I may give up on the cosplay, I SWEAR THIS IS A HAPPIER NOTE, but instead design another lolita outfit. And ask for Aimee's aid with it. X'D Lolita has and always be my niche, I know what I'm doing with it, so I'm more comfortable with the idea of wearing it. Damn my girly ways X'D

Got a call this morning at 9. From the GenCon rooming peoples, telling me they are on it, and trying to take care of it. Haven't heard from Holiday Inn. Probably cause they don't wish to deal with me. =_= I'm so damn tired.

And to top it off the sink is overflowing and no one wants to help me fix it. Of course this happened while I was doing laundry. So now there's a sink full of dishes, a whole load of wet laundry, and a mess in the kitchen. And no one wants to help. Thanks a fucking bunch Dad, Mom, Elisha, it's really fucking appreciated.

So I went to GenCon. I won't bother with the goings on of it all. It was both good and bad for me, enough about that. Originally I had put a room on a hold. I canceled the room reserve. Got charge the 50 for canceling. And thought everything was all well and good. Come Friday however I discovered I had over draft fees when I know I shouldn't have. And I couldn't help but wonder what the fuck I had bought that would cost me 380 dollars with the overdraft fees. I hadn't had time to look things over in my bank account. So I just said fuckit  and went and got the loan. Welp tonight, I finally had the chance to look over everything sanely. And what do you fucking know, I've been charged a full night's stay. Despite cancelation. I even have the email confirmation number.

I fucking hate everything right now. I didn't need to pull a damn loan. But now I'm left feeling more like crap over the whole thing. Can I please just stop existing now?

So I get to work, only to be watched by Patches. One of the quality team peoples. So my mind went blank for a bit. Thankfully I did all the morning calibrations without a hitch. X3 Sadly,  Scott didn't show up on time. So I ended up trying to pack, and keep the window up. From 8am to 11am. Fun stuffs.

Everyone finally showed up at 11. 8u Thankfully Tori and Oliver helped me out a bit. After that the day kinda flew away. =A= I wish I could have stayed at work longer.

Yesterday, was rather pretty during sunset. It looked like a scene from a random horror flick. X'D Today it's just cold and cloudy.

Today was rather short despite it starting so early. This week is the week of being there at 1pm to close. =A= I miss my 2pm arrival already.

I got the loan. It was for 200 bucks. Which is just enough to cover my mom's loan. And I only have to pay back an extra 30 bucks and considering the hours I'm getting the following weeks. I can definitely pay it back with my next check. And things should be in order by then. X3

I had to leave work early to get it taken care of. But the point is I don't have to worry about getting things taken care of for 2 weeks with only 150 to work with. X3

I was apparently very zombie like at work while I was there. =A= And it will only get worse cause I have to be there at 8am tomorrow.

It was pretty much a wake up go to work, work, type of day.

Next weekend will be awesome tho', I will have a 3 day weekend. And I will be paid for it. Cause of a holiday that's happening.

After getting the loan, we went grocery shopping. Hot damn food I can eat! I still have the 25 dollar gift card thing. I'm going to try to not use it, in case there is a major emergency.

Sadly there isn't much to type. f=3=' I lead a boring life. X'D ♥♫

Welp everything seems to be coming down on my head. If only mentally.
I just realized that tomorrow is Kati's birthday. Which definitely doesn't help my oh so fantastic mood.
I got a statement from my bank today informing me they are taking 380 out of my already short check. And it seems I really didn't fully consider the mental anguish I would experience over two close friends dating.

So in short. I'm not talking to either of them, so I can clear my head of it a bit better, stop making them both feel like shit over it.*Tho' I'm sure Tony is soo damn pissed right now he probably wants to punch me. At least he has girl distractions now, of the real life type* I'm going to apply for a short term loan Monday. *crosses fingers* And at least I figured out why I kept feeling like this weekend was going to be extremely crunchy.

My job had an audit this week. Terribly stressful. And our internal audit is in 30 days. So I'm hoping that within 30 days I should feel better about the situation. And if both the adorkable one and the acutable are still willing to talk to me, hawt damn I'm lucky.

People can still get a hold of me just not on aim. As I'm generally staying hidden on it. If it's a matter of life and death you can still text the screename and it will go straight to my cell. Or you can call me. I can't think of a single issue that could arise that would need me. *not trying to be emo here peoples just saying* But still just in case I feel it's best to let peoples know I'm reachable.

I'm considering after finally taking my test, in becoming a senior processor. It's more moneys so why the hell not? :B

Today wasn't so eventful at work. Mike was there, and he was telling his crap ass stories again. The kind of his magical sex exploits that ...have never really happened I'm sure of it. Dylan was Dylan, And Mellissa left on time.

The song I recommend listening on repeat today would definitely be Medicine Man by The Hush Sound ♥♫

Two tiny cherubs holding a bell. Their legs are pointing towards the bell and they have wings on their heads.

It's been since June, that I've checked LJ, life has gotten in the way. And by life I mean work. =A=

Many many things have changed. I was a bit depressed for a spell. But now that June is out of the way. I feel a bit better. When I get back from work I will post a few things about relationship issues and what not. And then start the very long hike through everyone's posts. So sorry if anyone gets random uber stupid style late responses from me. I've just been working like mad and thinking like crazy.

Another ACen update can be found here

Good gods it's been forever since I've updated my lj. Work has been almost all consuming. Last weekend I went to spend the night at Lindsay's, and went to a doll meet. XD Ended up bringing more home than I left with. Fell asleep on Lindsay at some point X'D. And brought the 360 with me so I got to play with someone else other than my lil' brother. X3

The weekend before that another doll meet. ...Was it at Gabby's? I believe it was. She has a fancy ass apartment. Hrrrmmm ah...I've done a lot but my mind is blank.

Bought an outfit for my up coming doll. That I won't be getting till after August. And some eyes for her too. Had a bunch a fun at the meet ups. I know that much.

Can be found here

Lol, nothing else to update about. Just been working. And trying to get some sleep =3=

Let's see what did I do this past week. Work, and by work I mean read and stand a lot. A LOT OF STANDING, is a part of this job. =3=
I read soo many manuals, and there are more to come. And since I'm training I have to be at work at 8am. =A= My back and shoulders hurt more than my feet. Poor, poor spine :c

Saturday, we did laundry at the laundromat, almost ALL the laundry. Took up 3 hours worth of our time. X'D And we discovered that their dryers still run on GAS. :/ Is that even legal anymore? And one of the dryers got UBER HOT. I mean really damn hot. To where you couldn't touch the clothes till they cooled down.

Sunday, I went with my Mom to Half Price books. Ended up with Ok Go and Eifel 65 *lol yes the one that died in our old 'puter.* And I went to Alex's house to deliver Pocky. Xd Which lead me to finding out where Gankutsuou went. X'D So now I have Volume 1 coming to my house for nothing. X'D Ah well it was only 99 cents, 4 bucks with shipping. I guess I will give it to someone♪

Today, not a lot of reading. About 2 hours worth. Learned some packaging stuffs,  and I am trying to get acronyms correct. Elisha bought me a Whatchmacallit candy bar. That was nice of her. I brought the much sought after can opener. And started reading Steven King's Desperation. Which will hopefully be better than "The Cell". I was soo dissapointed with that book it isn't funny. XT

Mom said she will help me with my measurements tonight. ♥ Thank gods, I'm sure Aimee is getting tired of waiting. f=3=' And I should have sketches and stuff done.

I'm a bit emo cause I can't speak with Tony as much online at night, thanks to my job. I can't wait for when I switch over to the "night shift" to start. Then I won't have to be up at 7am to be there conciously at 8 f=3=. I think I will  start texting him from my other screename so he can send me texts while I'm offline. ...Should probably get everyone texting that account soon anyhow. It's a new year, so why not?

Making tea, for drinking at work tomorrow, right now. I will definitely need the sugar. f=3=' Possibly, need to get used to drinking coffee type things in the am hours. Maybe that will help me move faster at work.

Hrrrm, need to get a new cellio phone soon. My old girl is getting rather dingy. =A= I really don't want to part with her though. Since it's the first cell phone Kati and I got. But, it's starting to act up and it's essentially a life line when the power goes out. -_- I will see if I can squeeze more time from it.

Komari is so damn cute it hurts. The way she smiles, just makes me go "AAAAAAAAAAWWWWWW" And Ghost boy is ADORKABLE. Where did Oscar obtain the Beetlejuice suit?! XDDD
I'm about to finish watching episode 7 now. X3

MUST make "Kissing Monster" icon with all the people who say "Me too" XDD

LMAO SANO HAS EMO HAIR EVEN WHEN IT'S WET!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Seriously am going to have find the soundtrack to this. XD

Also I have Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along blog soundtrack. And def. want to share♪ Let me know if you want it. XD

Hopefully I will cover all that's going through my head.

Thursday was my Mom's actual birthday,*or rather I'm told so f=3= I've always been horrible with bdays*. Friday we celebrated it with dinner, and going to see Caroline. *Terribly cute movie. I'm surprised one scene was allowed. LOL @ GINORMOUS BOOB JIGGLE*

Saturday was spent bored. 'Von played some games with me. But for some reason I got really sick. To the point where I thought I might throw up. D; Not awesome. When all the spooky finally subsided I played L4D on commentary mode. The zombies don't attack you in it. X3

Sunday...I can't recall, more games? I think my Mom went and had her nails done. And we cooked dinner again.

Monday, last night. I ended up staying up till almost 4:30am. After trying so hard at getting to bed early. X'D But it was worth going from the schedule I was trying to obtain. Vinny and Lukin are now a couple ♥ I think this is the first time I was genuinely happy about 2 people becoming a couple. X'D Earlier in the day, again I felt like I was going to be violently sick. =A= I'm not liking whatever you are trying to pull off stomach so cut this shit out.

I'm surprised today is Tuesday. Since my lil' brother was home Monday.  How did I loose the weekend so quickly?! I got up at 10:30am, today. Wtih luck I will be getting up at 8:30am to be out the door and at work at 9am. And I have started burning Sailor Moon onto disc. It's much easier when no one is home while I do this. Thankfully Dad is at work. And I've already gotten Season 1 copied on to disc. ♥ Soon I will free up 36 gigs on my laptop, and I will be able to obtain more animus to burn/collect. XD

Monday is the begining of my training. I'm so nervous. X'D

Been getting lots of calls for interviews. One was for Beach Groves walmart, but they only wanted me to work 3 hour shifts during their busiest shift. Not worth the gas.

On the other hand, if I make it past the 2nd interview at the other place. I will be making 9 bucks an hour while I'm being trained and 9.48 an hour when I get past that. Full time. :o Wish me luck♥ And thanks to everyone that did before♥♥

Been forcing my lil' brother to play Left 4 Dead with me since Friday. XD

And today I didn't go into work. I wanted to spend time with my family. I told Lea last week, that I wasn't coming in after this past Friday. And when Lea told Phil this. He told her that I "wouldn't do that cause she wants to make sure she can come back to work here if she needs to. And her Mom works for Denison Parking, so it would cause her problems. She put in her two weeks notice I know she will keep to that." What the hell does my Mom working for Denison Parking have to do with MY working for Denison Parking? Dumbass, we aren't even in the same area of work. I'm a cashier and she is the Supervisor of the Valet parking at the hospital. :T And why on earth would I want to come BACK to that place with him still as manager? Funny how he was so sure I'd stick through the entire two weeks notice, but he was also sooo damn sure I was fucking theif. Funny shit that. e_e He called my Mom's cell phone telling her that I MUST bring in all the stuff from work. LMAO, if I wanted to be a bitch. I could just keep all the shit, and force him to change all the fucking locks like he's supposed to do in the first place, when Kenny quit. But no, I will be a nice person type thing. And bring back the keys sometime later on.

I still find it funny that he ended up working my shift. Cause low and behold, his cover girl  couldn't make it. And neither could his lacky Brandon. HA Serves you right jackass.

Thankfully, despite this economy, there are plenty of jobs to be had. Just not ones most people wouldn't think of or know about ;p

The guide I got from Onnawufei came in today. X3 Now I'm just waiting on Cornelius' glasses and some lotion.

Got an interview tomorrow. Wish me luck~

So I'm sitting at work minding my own business and this girl in a Denison work shirt shows up. Apparently I'm supposed to train her. But once again Phil has the girl show up when there are no transactions to be had, and 2 whole hours before I can show her how to do closing shift. If she will even stay around for it. Yeah, this is totally going to go well. I'm not even paid to train someone, and every single person he has hired thus far has failed miserably. It's up to 10 people that have given up/quit/got fired. Luckily I won't have to stick around to find out. ;D

Every single time I go to burn Sailor Moon so I can have some room on my laptop, something pops up to distract me. Dad wants 'puter, mom wants to go shopping, someone forgot to fill the pots with water so we can have steam heat going in the kitchen. =A= May I have some "me" time now?

Elisha for some fucking reason thought it was ok to let me sleep till 6:30pm. Nice work there sis. Considering I didn't go to bed after work to make sure your punkass could get to this doctor's office at 9am, found where the fuck it was for you cause you didn't know, and got you after dropping you off there. So I didn't go to bed till 11:45 which really means I didn't sleep till about 12:30-1pm. Real fucking nice. Why the hell do I bother helping her? Why? Argh I'm tired of being nice. Serisouly I am.

Blargh, new job can't be here soon enough. =A=

Sometime around 3 am I heard an automatic weapon fired across the street at one of the bars. In the end  more than 12 cop cars showed up in less than 5 minutes. The corner of Ritter and English/Brookville was blocked by police cars and taped off. A woman was screaming and a few men were yelling "Fuck that bitch" and "Fuck the police". As soon as the police told people they couldn't leave a riot almost came out of it. And some woman wouldn't stop screaming. Some people tried to run down Ritter but were stopped by police and cuffed. Eventually they were let go. While all that was happening a man tried to ram his truck through the pilled up snow. But was unsuccessful, and is still waiting to leave.  3 people are dead, according to the people that my dad talked to, the motive as to why though is still unknown.

Something like this, on this scale, has never happened at the bars*the incident occured at the "King of Clubs" directly on the corner, not the "Ritter Inn" in the years that I've lived here. Usually there is some altrication, shots are fired, everyone runs, and cops show up 20 minutes later, to do nothing. Generally no dies, at worst, they get hurt. So I'm absolutely surprised at how fast the cops arrived and contained the area,and that 3 people are probably dead over something REALLY fucking stupid. They arrived before the firetruck, and ambulance. I saw the 3 stretches with the men on them. But they didn't bother covering them. So I'm sure the rumor that 3 men were killed is true.

I wonder if it will be on the news. I took pictures regardless and a lil' video tho' I doubt it means much.
The cop cars are still here now with their lights on, only 4 cars remain. Just now all the people have left.

La sigh.

So it seems that my Mom's van is going to be out of commission for even longer than expected. What was going to cost 900+ bucks is going to be 1000+ and they STILL don't know what the fuck is making the "OH HOLY SHIT THE TIRE IS GOING TO COME OFF" noise. So basically they are going to replace all of the front end, and see if that gets rid of the noise.

Tony has been texting me to get me up around 2ish. *his one* Lukin and Vinny's comps are kaput so they haven't been online for a while now. =A=

Still haven't heard from ZLB. =A= I suspect that Phill has something do to with that. I tried to warn the custodians before that he is out for a scapegoat, and that he will do everything in his power to keep everyone from getting a raise. And they didn't listen. So now they have both been written up.

My eye keeps getting gunk in it no matter how many times I clean it. =_= Time to obtain more evil eye drops. Perhaps something similar to the hobo germ killing kind I had back in highschool.

It seems that tomorrow construction resumes at work again. I'm so tired of it all. And I'm not sure why the fuck illinois entrance will be closed off/ turned into an exit. THAT FUCKING SIDE IS FINISHED ALREADY. I'M NOT FREEZING MY ASS OFF FOR YOUR DUMBASS! Blargh 

I want to draw again. So I'm going to go buy a new art notebook. Hopefully this will inspire me to get back with it all.

I hate this cold ass weather. It's making me depressed. I made a new icon see above. X)

Also, did I lend Gankutsuo volumes 1-3 to anyone? I can't find them. But have all the rest 8u

LMAO
Tony is getting mad at me cause I keep getting up later and later in the day. And is now going to be texting my cell phone or something. Till I get up. ...I'm not sure what I agreed to.

Family has eaten all the ice cream that tastes of cake batter. :c

....Um... I haven't done much else this weekend. Except sleep and get online, and read manga. Talked to Tony about Majin Tantai Nougami Neuro, and then played Left 4 Dead.

I'm happy it's getting warm enough to snow. It was getting too damn cold. PLEASE WARM WEATHER COME HERE AND STAY NOW!

I've been making LJ icons huzzah. X3 Lol, some of these are rather old. But the point is I made 'em =p Last 3 are the newest.



I had a wonderful time at the last Doll meet. Aimee's food was soo good. And I owe Lindsay for more foods. X'D At some point I need to take better pictures. And try to get up before 6pm. The garage at work, is going under construction again. So everything stanks. And I have these bad headaches like crazy.

I've been so depressed lately I haven't had much movitation for anything other than reading. =_= I really hate this weather. The pipes are trying to freeze, and my house has no heat. So I pray the electric holds out, other wise we will all freeze. *rooms are warmed by space heaters*
I've applied for a position at the ZLB plasma center near my house. Hopefully I will get it. I'm tired of dealing with my manager. And his douchbagery. ...apparently douchbagery is a word. Thanks firefox! I'm also going to apply for a position at the walmart further up on washington street. I need a new job, one where it won't end with me killing Phil, for being stupid.

Andrew said he still wants to go to ACen. So heads up roomies, we will have 2 newbies♥ I gotta update the list. Andrew if you can let me know what day you are arriving. My lil' group usually arrives Thursday, so we can take care of registration and things X)

http://www.mangafox.com/page/manga/read/80/hana_zakari_no_kimitachi_e/chapter.18708/page.27/ so I can make another lj icon ♥

These are my icons♥

default	oldest	newest
saddest	happiest	angriest
cutest	sexiest	funniest
fave ship	fave fandom	fave animated
best quote	best textless	best stolen idea
use the most	favorite

HOW MANY ICONS DO YOU HAVE:78
OUT OF HOW MANY AVAILABLE ICONS SPACES:110
IF YOU COULD BUY SPACE FOR MORE, WOULD YOU:Yeah especially if I run out of space. :T
DO YOUR ICONS MAKE A STATEMENT:Sometimes, but it's usually, just to express exasperation.
WHAT FANDOM DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF:Seems to be anime
AND THE SECOND MOST:Internet memes
WHAT SHIP DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF:Rofl, I only have one that is an actual relationship. And it's Ouran's Tamaki and Haruhi. So, I'm not sure it counts. X'D
ARE YOUR ICONS MADE MOSTLY BY OTHER PEOPLE:Yeah for the most part.
DO YOU MAKE ICONS:Yes
ARE THEY ANY GOOD:Good enough for me to use. :T
ANIMATED ICONS ARE:Time consuming.

DO THE MEME.I DID IT! STOP YELLING AT ME!
Coding can be found here

A few weekends ago I went to a doll meet. Which was awesome! There were pictures to be had and 'Sody stepped on a poor Santa lap to obtain a beard. Her faceup was done by the lovely Pax.  I showed Aimee a few lolita mooks, and lent out all my lolita mags XD

Aimee says she can do the lolita commission X3 I'm wondering if I should go ahead and get myself situated for ACen first then get Monty outfit made. That way I can have something to wear at the con. X3 Lindsay bought me food stuffs. I owe her for this. *nods solemly* Birdgirl/Linda's home is awesome. She has introduced me to delicious teas that don't need a fuck ton of sugar. :d And she explained to me Aimee's doll plot line. Which makes so much more sense now. I was honestly worried thinking,"What kind of illness can be cured by getting preggers. :'B " now I feel dulll. And things make WAAAAAY more sense X'D Caitlin and I like Naono Bohra's work X3 I need to remind myself to ask to take pictures any chance she gets. XD *Though she probably plans on doing that anyway XDD* And I need to save up cash to pay for things♪ *I have 16 bucks set aside X) at the moment and more will be set aside with this next check.*

Then the week went by slowly. Tony and I are dorks. And I blame him for this weather.

This weekend, I went to my first LARP. It was fun...but I'm very confused. REALLY CONFUSED. XD The people there are so good. I couldn't tell if they were acting or not. XD I want to go again, once I figure out this whole character sheet bizz. f6_9' Everyone was really nice. I forget what the boy's name was that helped ...I know his characters name was ...Moon...something :B. And once more I forgot Pax's hubby's name. :T *It's Dan, Eby, DAN...I ...think :' T*

I've been reading through the "smut" section of mangafox.com trying to find something decent that didn't involve the main character ending up "likeing" her rapist. :T Which is surprisingly harder than it should. >8I However I did come across the artist Kayono, whose stuff is stupid hilarious in places. http://www.mangafox.com/page/manga/search?advopts=1&artist_method=cw&artist=Kayono My favourite stories by her are "Princess Hanaka" and "Shinobi no Onna" the first story with the same name. Despite how batshit and lame some of her stories are, I can't help reading on due to her style of drawing. X'D

I'm trying to get Tony to come to GenCon this year. But he needs a place to stay. So maybe I can coax the rest of my friends up in Chicago to come down during the summer. Who knows maybe I will have my own place by then. :o

I've been trying to design a cat for the skirt. I figured my cat Nightmist would be sufficiant, but no matter what I draw it comes out too cartoony. And I end up tossing it. I will keep going till I get something I like. Possibly akin to Chat Noir style.

I was supposed to go hang with Stephani yesterday night. But that didn't happen. Apparently she donated blood that morning, after we spoke. And slept the day away. Oh well. I got some food instead,gas, and a Kroger card. Then went home.

Today my car was incased in ice. Just like when I first got it from Sarahi. =3= Thank gods I bought that awesome ice scraper.

Now to do laundry, as I will be going to work early tomorrow. =A= and Saturday I will be working too. BOOOO

My cat Harley attacked my back and it's all bloody now. :T Fun stuff that.

Lol post it in a response here! I wish to know the secrets to your tastey sounding pie/cake!

Doing some dolly window shopping, so I more or less know where to look when I do have cash to spend. And this has brightened my mood considerably.

Monty
http://www.kondoll.com/ProductList.aspx?prid=733
http://www.eluts.com/frontstore/Item/item_zoom.asp?item_num=1312&catalog_num=0&mart_id=lutsdoll&level=yes&mother_catalog_num=554

Cornelius
http://www.dollfairyland.com/shop/step1.php?number=27 peavy head
http://www.kondoll.com/ProductList.aspx?prid=563
http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?t=122222 T style specs
http://www.dollmore.net/shop/step1.php?number=6040
simple black or beige pants 
button up shirt short sleeve
a tie
Tinybear wig in black
unsure about shoes at present

Unnamed luna moth/ glow worm thingy
http://www.eluts.com/frontstore/Item/item_zoom.asp?item_num=593&catalog_num=99&mart_id=lutsdoll&level=&mother_catalog_num=121
Tinybear wig
Custome outfit

Octavius
http://www.dimdoll.com/shop/step1.php?number=205 hair, eyes and makeup as seen
*currently unsure what I want him to wear I might mimick Black Butler's Sebastian's outfit rofl I be dorky*
Shoes: http://www.leekeworld.us/frontstore/Item/item_zoom.asp?item_num=8987&catalog_num=0&mart_id=leekeworld&level=yes&mother_catalog_num=647

Mogget
http://www.dollfairyland.com/shop/step1.php?number=223 with winky face and kitty ears and paws
*currently unsure what I want him to wear*

It's been forever since I've actually updated, and I'm sorry for that. I've been preoccupied by stumbleupon and mangafox.com =A=

Not much has been going on with me though. So no worries there. I went to a doll meet at Pax's house. She got the wig to fit Rhapsody X3.
I got lost on the way to and from Pax's house. f^_^' But still made it home HUZZAH.

I've been finding myself rather listless lately. Wanting to do stuff but at the same time having no ambition to do so. Leaving me with a rather annoying unique feeling of having not finished something.

I've been really freaking nice to my sister. As Mom wanted me to be. But that niceness has caused me the result of no fucking gas in my car. And no way of paying to fill it >:I As she is saying the stuff she got me at Bath and Body works is now my Xmas gift *despite the fact that originally I took her there so I could get the discount and pay her later on*. =A= Fine whatever, that doesn't really fix the issue of running you around earlier this week. =_=

Last night the tree lighting ceremony happened down the street and my assistant manager Brandon thought it would be a good idea, to make me let out each car one by one. So what usually would have taken a half hour to let people out took 2 hours with idiots walking up to the booth asking me why I'm only letting people out one at a time, and trying to open the booth door. Who in their right mind thinks it's ok to walk up on a stranger and open their door?! Thank gods I'm paranoid and lock it every damn time. Only one person had to pay to leave, and he caused some trouble. And tried to pull the door open by force and ask me how he was going to get out, like it was my fault he lost the ticket. I had to explain to him that if he didn't have a debit card or cash he would have to leave his car over night, till we open again 5pm Saturday and pay to leave then. Suddenly he wasn't such a dick anymore. =A=

I'm finding myself more antsy each time Tony goes out to hang with friends, he's been doing this more and more lately. Mostly cause it leaves me without anyone to talk to. As I'm a silly bint that thinks she will bother people if she IMs them out of the blue. I just hope that he hasn't been talking to me so much this past year, due to the fact that he feels obligated to. I'm really thankful for his friendship. As he made me laugh instead of cry when I was feeling my shittiest. *also according to firefox spell check shittiest is a word LA GASP* Now if only I could do the same for him. =_= As lately he seems to be down in the dumps but is trying to hide it/down play it.

I've also been eyeballing likely homes near me. As it would be nice to live on my own at some point before i'm 25. :p Just need more people to live with as I like noise other than a tele.

I'm going to let others know that it's probably not the best idea to try and get together during winter. For many reasons mostly money...and I'm a bitchy ass person when I'm cold. Despite the fact that it's a good excuse to see Vinny, Lukin and Tony. For the sake of the hotel room. Hopefully everyone can make it, or at least tell me before I can cancel in time. Also... cons happen once a year. I feel doing this get together thing once a year makes it more special.♥

Next check will be, new tires and the start of paying Momma Anna back. The tires, which will cost more in the long run will probably be replaced one or two at a time. Mostly cause that's what I can afford.

I hung out with Julia a few weekends ago. Which was fun, aside from the being po' and driving in the dark on the way home. STUPID WINTER DAYLIGHT IS SO SHORT LIVED ARRRRGH! I almost broadsided a red car that was driving without it's lights on. WHO THE HELL DOES SHIT LIKE THAT >8I

Also why is the Twilight movie doing so good? D; Future I weep for you. 

Now to get around to commisioning Aimee for Monty's outfit, and then my own. X3 For ACen. But that's for later. I found a place to download the current episodes of Hitman Reborn. And I'm finally watching the rest of Sailor Stars. Which brought much dorky jokes and laughter. As one of the attacks is "STAR GENTLE UTERUS" and Alex came back with a girl that turns into a guy with the attack "PROSTATE FLAME!" Much awesomely dorky stuff was had. X3

Ah it looks like family is moving again. I will try and update more often from now on, and read friends posts. I'm SO very sorry for my negligence guys, really I am. Cause it makes me look like such a douche bag. =3=

Laters♪
Eby

And testing once more, la fixed! Had to make an even more future post than the one at top and delete it :B

The debt for the house has been paid off for the past two years. I can drive my car now*hawt damn*. But dad is still pulling his lame "not working for a week" thing. And 'Sody's commission has been finished X3 La awesome!

I can't get this to work on my house 'puter so I'm going to see if it will work on my laptop when I get to work. =0=
http://www.survivetheoutbreak.com/

Lj is being stupid and not letting me post unless I click the date out of order option. Despite having 2 entries after I posted my one in the future :/

Where the hell is my car charger for my cell phone?!

Short story so not everyone is too confused. I have all 200 episodes of Sailor Moon and have been destroying my brain,willingly, to make sure everything is alright with them. So far I've found,
Episode 29 of Ss has no subtitles at all, either need the subs or to replace the episode all together.
Episode 21 of R is subbed in the most strangest way. Again if possible, needs to be replaced.
Episode 23 of season 1 has audio that cuts out for 10 minutes near the end (10:14-20:00). *Fixed* <3

Needs to replace these episodes before I commit to burning it on dvd.

If anyone knows where to get said episodes and them not be in rmvb(?) format I will love you forever.

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PLEASE NOTE, Vinny doesn't own Lukin's house *headdesk* I'm just special. :B

Also I HATE the sound of my own voice. D;

Tony: I'm massaging your feet with the power of my voice.

"Why so vague" Vinny

Eva:Why do these buildings look so out of place, like that one? Star:  ... You mean the Sears tower? Eva: ....Fuck you!

Eby: Emo desu.  Vinny: EMO JANAI!

Star: I was just looking Christian Bail in the imb to see what's been in him.

Eby: Sorry about last night Tony. Tony: It's ok I've grown to accept what happened.

Gods there is more but I will have to pester others for it. XD

Star: Everything is Eby's fault, it's cause of the honey cashews farts of the death that will kill us all in a single instant. *please note I never actually farted from cashews 8I, but now everything is indeed my fault Xo*

Star: Hey Eby wanna go to SEEEeeeXXXy Moutain? Eby: Can I like hide from Sexy Mountain, like hide in a valley or something? Star: Ummm no, ...Sexy Mountain is my bewbs. Eby: :u

Eby: Hey put the telly on mute?! *while playing Eternal Darkness* Lukin: It's the game.  Eby: Oh... well damn!

Everyone: It's OVER NINE THOUSAND!!!

Going to the Chicago place tomorrow. So nervous it isn't funny. Much is still needed to be done. =0= And I have about 165 to spend now. =0=
Gods help me not be a dork all over Tony and my friends.
Going to take lots of crap ass pics with my floppy disc having camer-ram-era.
Hopefully I have change in my change machine as well.
Argh why do I pack so damn much it's technically only 2 nights!

http://chicago.hotelscheap.org/

Going to be trying to find a nice hotel in chicago X3  the first weekend of August. I've found some cheap hotels but worry about the location. I've been up to many many things. With luck I will stop being lazy and post about them ; )

Thanksgacktyougirl for the help. And glad I could help in some way X)

1) Icon meme!

Look at your LJ userpics list. If you have fewer than 50 icons, pick every fifth one. If you have between fifty and seventy-five icons, pick every seventh one. If you have over seventy-five icons, pick every tenth one. If you have fewer than ten, pick all of 'em. List them on your LJ, and tell everyone exactly why you have it, why it's interesting to you, what significance does it have.


This is my ZOMG pissed icon. I got it cause Mugen is the best example stupid angry. X3 ....and I'm retarded happy for Mugen.

I got this thanks to that damn meme that ruined the ending for Portals for me. I figured since I already know the out come, might as well enjoy the stupid that comes with it. =D

This is my throw back to ninja turtles and stupid happy icon. Gods I'd kill for one of these right now. :0

I'm a putz for Kamikaze Girls leave me be. f^_^' It's my being creative icon

One of my sarcasm icons. Plus I love Oregon Trail something hardcore.

Yet another sarcasm icon, and Mugen. I did mention I'm stupid for him, right?

Nana, I love the manga something serious and I needed an icon for sleepy. SO here it be. ♥

Roflmao, and I landed on my other need sleep icon. I love Naono Bohra's work and needed a few icons of her stuffs.

This is a furuba icon, I rarely use it save for in private entries. Cause I stupid and gave a link to my lj out. =3= Oh well. Kyo is adorable in the way he can't say what his heart wants. And this shows it perfectly. X3

Thanks Garnet and Ramone*shutupred* for your kindness. It was greatly appreciated.

Fuck. It's been a whole damn year. I probably won't be on aim for a bit. Sorry.